BEAR

It shrieked in the night

It wasn’t a cry 

It was Bear, a deep wail 

In the place where seeds grow

Nails pierced my inner landscape

My heart

Living inside 

Bear 

How would I walk with this Bear

In my two-room apartment?

I allowed myself to be sucked

And I did not understand 

How to nurse

What seemed to be impenetrable

They told me to come to the water

and so I did

Staring into the water and the enclosure 

I couldn’t see

Life was discoloring me

And the grief swallowing 

Me

And the Bear

Grief- my nightly lounge singer 

front row tickets 

blurry and bloated 

I died

(consumption has that effect on people)

until I remembered the sun

and my living love

the same living love 

accommodates all kinds of performances

and then the Angel of Mercy visited

I saw her truth

Her living essence of love

This love 

Took me home

And I breathe with the bear